Hey you all! I really be neglecting my blog and I only had 2 post last years. Things are about the same as when I made my last post. I am still unemployed though I have been substitute teaching part-time (That’s a blog post in its self), and I’ve gained even more weight from a post I made almost 2 years ago. The only thing different is that I will be starting a full position that I will call a “fellowship” (since that is technically what it is) on July 1st. his will bed for a year. I don’t want to say the name of the organization I’ll be working with because I don’t want my blog to come up in different search engines. I’ll probably post about that later when I start.
So back to my point of being here. I decided to start a different blog for my weight loss journey and I hope that I stick with it. I might not post on here as much but I will share post from time to time from that blog on to here. I do have a lot on my mind, but I just haven’t thought of how to write it here yet. That might sound weird, but I’m just not motivated to write here and really delve deep into this block like I originally planned and analyze stuff and put my thoughts and opinions about things on here. I should since I’m constantly putting my thoughts onto my FB page. We’ll see if I am motivated one day but until then, follow my weight loss blog. What motivated me to start this is because I decided to start a challenge that came across my Facebook feed from a black women weight loss page I follow. I need the encouragement to stay on track. I’ve jumped up to a whopping almost 300 lbs. About 299.99 to be exact. Yikes! Anyway, see my post below. As that starts going well, I’ll probably be back to this blog as I try to finish picking up the pieces of my life. Anyways, here you go:
Here I go with yet another blog to collect my thoughts. Hopefully this will be one that I won’t neglect. As I just stepped on the scale right now it fluctuated between 297.8 lbs to 298.8 lbs. about a week ago on May 24th, I stepped on the scale to see the damage from being out-of-town and eating restaurant food. I was at 299.9 lbs. Just 0.10 lbs shy of 300 lbs. Just a week or so before that I got to 289 lbs. My weight has been fluctuating between 290 and 300 over the last several months. How did I even get this big?
I have another blog that explains how I got to this weight and I might link it to here one day, but the short story is that life threw some curve balls at me and now is the time to dust myself off and try again. A long story short I was over 100 lbs smaller 5 or 6 years ago. I started grad school in 2012 and didn’t keep up with my exercising and eating like I should’ve. I dealt with fibroid tumors and was put on a birth control shot which caused me to be depressed and overeat and gain weight. before graduating from grad school I did attempt to lose some of the weight I gained and was successful with and trainer in 2014 only to gain my weight back after no longer being able to afford a trainer. That wasn’t the problem though. The problem was dealing with depression, over eating and then having surgery to remove my fibroid tumor in 2015 and then foot surgery in 2016, and being sedentary. I figured that having surgery and getting off the birth control would help my depression and it maybe did to an extent.
I lost my job in August 2016 and though I thought I was ok, I realized months after that I was depressed still. Maybe losing my job and not knowing how my future would be triggered it. Even though I had the time to work out, I didn’t. I slept late and ate. Winter came and I slept more and ate more. Then came 2017. I made a vision board to help me with my goals for the year: Lose weight, travel more, find a job that pays better than my last, get a car, find love, get healthy, enjoy life. However due to my depression I lacked motivation to even start reaching these goals. I started to do some things but most of the things, like losing weight and eating healthy, I haven’t even started.
My mother keeps telling me that by 55 she wants to be fit. She just turned 54 and she has been fighting to stay motivated. She tried to encourage me to lose weight because she knows the struggle and has weighed more than me. I now weigh more than her. I’m 35, soon to be 36 by years end and I am now the biggest one. I have to get out of 200 lbs. I have a whole person to lose.
My goal is to reach 175 lbs. I know 150 to 170 lbs would put my 5’10” frame in a good BMI range but I felt thin when I was at 183 lbs 6 years ago. I hope to get to 175 by next year, or at least by my 37th birthday so that I can be “Sexy by 37”. So I have about 175 lbs to lose. I not only want to lose weight, I want to be healthy from the inside out. I want to tone up and gain back the muscle I lost and some. I want to be fit and be “feeling better than I ever felt before today” as the words to my favorite Old Kanye West song says. I may not lose 100 lbs by the end of the year as I planned but I want to at least get started. Here’s to June 1st 2017, the starting point of my journey and the marker for the beginning of the second half of 2017. Let’s go!